I should explain that we’re not talking about those vast American high schools here that cross the Atlantic on film. There were 61 women in my graduating class. I’d been in school with a sizeable chunk of them since we were four years old. Like siblings, I don’t remember meeting them … they have just always been there. Almost the entirety of the class was in place by the time we turned 13, meaning most of us traversed the traumas and triumphs of young adulthood together. (Ironically, our only new joiner in our later years became, and remains, the dearest of all those friends, suggesting that even back then I was hungry to expand my horizons.)
It was a Catholic School, run by a religious order, as so many of the answers to “the Saint Louis question” would be. This will also be alien to British colleagues, as the country has some of the lowest levels of religious affiliation in the world. Religious-led education does exist in the UK, but it’s not the norm it was in my childhood experiences. And while I’d call our nuns, the Religious of the Sacred Heart of Jesus, quite light touch on the God front … I’ve always thought of them as the female Jesuits … as the years go by I realise they gave us a shared moral code that’s baked into our bones. Plus a bunch of goofy traditions that horrify properly Protestant friends, like placing notes in the lap of the Virgin Mary with special requests and praying to a vast array of saints based upon your need and their specialty areas. Honestly, who can deny the charm of Jude, the patron saint of hopeless causes, or slipping some cash under St. Anthony's statue for help finding something you've lost? (Find it, his poor box gets the money. It stays lost, take your cash back.)
We were also given a profound sense of place, something you probably don’t realise influences you until long after you leave. Our school was fortunate enough to be surrounded by rambling acres of wooded parkland. The main building itself had been copied from a medieval French chateau. There were circular staircases and attics, secret access onto roofs with dramatic views, a woodland grotto with a statue of the Madonna we crowned in May, and outdoor hides for secret conclaves. There was even a series of formal “parlours”, furnished like an aristocratic French home, used for special meetings. (Sadly a reunion tour of the building showed that these have been re-purposed and mostly stripped of their grandeur since my days.) Just as Hogwarts functions as a character in the Harry Potter novels, the physical entity that is Villa Duchesne, the house of the oak, played a part in our story. I have no doubt it added fuel to all the loves that brought me to Europe.
On Friday night, one of my classmates opened her house for us to join an already-planned reunion party for the Class of ‘82 from what we had generally considered to be our brother school, the Saint Louis Priory. (This Benedictine outpost in the American Midwest is a daughter house of Ampleforth in Yorkshire, a visit to which I wrote about here.) Our hostess had married one of their number, and the co-educational aspect leant this party more of a sense of what Brits might expect of a high school reunion. There was a lot of peering across the room, thinking someone looked familiar, trying to remember names. “Who are all these paunchy, balding, middle-aged men?” We asked ourselves. The boys were no doubt pondering a similar question about fat women and dyed hair, while we all fancy ourselves to be about 22. Inevitably, for most of the party the girls ended up in one room and the boys in the other … though I think we all look rather fabulous in the group shot below.
The highlight of the night for many was one of the men turning up with his male partner. Everyone was delighted he’d found joy and happy that a relationship that would have been unimaginable in our school days was now normal. Our world had moved on for the better.
The lawns in front of the main castle building were dotted with tables and chairs, and booths on the front drive offered fun stuff for kids. People had been encouraged to bring their youngsters, always a good idea at a school where some families may be enticed into their fourth or even fifth generation of affiliation.
While the traditional architecture remains, technology is now obviously present in classrooms, as you’d expect. Teachers' and administrators' offices are now throughout the building rather than all clustered on the top floor, hinting at a more open style of learning. In a digital age, the library is smaller, with one wing of it now converted to a high-end lecture hall and conference centre. The stripping back of the parlours across the hall from that, I suspect, is a related development. An exhibition of old uniforms contributed much delight, and even a bit of horror as an old grey tweed smock brought back vivid memories of itchy discomfort. Display boards in the main hallway offered photo montages from the senior yearbooks of the various reunion classes, and bulletin boards showed off what was going on these days with different clubs and extracurriculars.
That night was an impromptu, BYO affair for about 20 classmates who hadn't yet had their fill of each other. We sat around campfires in one of the cohort's back gardens, sharing war stories and laughing at the past. We are mature women now, with quite a collection of baggage. It's mellowed us, and made our shared history sweeter.
In our younger years this wasn't always the case. Jealousy crept into the early mix as we suspected the grass was greener over other fences. I know that I, who came late to love and marriage, felt an awkward outsider for years next to many of my ... as I saw them to be ... more beautiful, more affluent and more happily paired classmates. The years have knocked away illusions, and revealed that all of us were insecure about something. And special in our own ways. None of us have perfect lives. Instead, as a community we've seen it all: significant illness, relationship issues, addiction, financial trouble, death. What hasn’t killed us has made us, and the ties in this group, ever stronger. And I have no doubt the moral core that our nuns, mostly long dead now, shaped within us made that happen. In the warm glow of Saturday night’s campfire, I realised just how blessed and privileged I was to grow up with these women.
The one painful absence in the weekend was a lack of diversity. We had four African-American classmates, a slightly larger Filipino community and one Jewish girl (whose mother ran our art department and who was an invaluable addition to both Old Testament and comparative religion studies). That wasn’t a bad mix for a class of 61.






































